are you ready?

on my way to my kampung, i saw an accident. it happened in front of my eyes. the car was speeding initially with another car. and suddenly it went sideways and turned upside down. i was...speechless. if the driver met his death on that night, let's donate al-fatihah to him.

مَآ أَصَابَ مِن مُّصِيبَةٍ فِى الاٌّرْضِ وَلاَ فِى أَنفُسِكُمْ إِلاَّ فِى كِتَـبٍ مِّن قَبْلِ أَن نَّبْرَأَهَآ إِنَّ ذَلِكَ عَلَى اللَّهِ يَسِيرٌ - لِّكَيْلاَ تَأْسَوْاْ عَلَى مَا فَاتَكُمْ وَلاَ تَفْرَحُواْ بِمَآ ءَاتَـكُمْ وَاللَّهُ لاَ يُحِبُّ كُلَّ مُخْتَالٍ فَخُورٍ

No calamity occurs in the earth nor in yourselves but it is inscribed in the Book of Decrees before We bring it into existence. Verily, that is easy for Allah.In order that you may not grieve at the things over that you fail to get, nor rejoice over that which has been given to you. And Allah likes not prideful boasters. (57:22-23)

i then reflected upon my life. am i ready if i were meant to die tonight? will i open my eyes tomorrow's morning? do i have enough amal to show to Him in my book of deeds? will i receive it by my right hand? i'll be in great loss forever if i receive it by my left hand. how my life in kubur will be? how will i meet my death? in my peaceful room or in a wrecked car? no one knows except Him. My Lord, let every inch of myself always serve You. My Lord, it it was written in Luh Mahfuz that i'll meet my death earlier, let me die in the state of being Your servant. aminn.

قُلْ إِنَّ الْمَوْتَ الَّذِى تَفِرُّونَ مِنْهُ فَإِنَّهُ مُلَـقِيكُمْ ثُمَّ تُرَدُّونَ إِلَى عَالِمِ الْغَيْبِ وَالشَّهَـدَةِ فَيُنَبِّئُكُم بِمَا كُنتُمْ تَعْمَلُونَ

Say: "Verily, the death from which you flee, will surely meet you, then you will be sent back to the Knower of the unseen and the seen, and He will inform you about what you used to do.' (62:8)

those little things

i went to pavillion last few days. that's my first time though my home is just 30 mins away from kl. i was surrounded by sparkling glassy walls as i was walking down the alleys. designs of various shops there were undeniably spectacular. that ain't my main focus though. i was observing how humans are attracted and response to it. shoes, clothes, jewelleries, food. it'll make us breathless if we want to keep up with latest updates. and why those little things become the main focus in many people's life now. many were too busy thinking how will my jeans fit me. will this top match my skinny jeans? latte with hazelnut or caramel syrup for today (ouchh)?

Know that the life of this world is only play and amusement, pomp and mutual boasting among you, and rivalry in respect of wealth and children. (It is) like a rain (Ghayth), thereof the growth is pleasing to the tiller; afterwards it dries up and you see it turning yellow; then it becomes straw. But in the Hereafter (there is) a severe torment, and (there is) forgiveness from Allah and (His) pleasure. And the life of this world is only a deceiving enjoyment. (57:20)

dont they think about the destruction of the wonderful khulafa' system? will we have the next sultan muhammad al fateh or salahuddin al ayubi? what is the next meal for my sisters and brothers in palestine? those little things have distracted our attention from the real reality. so let's wake up my dear friends. we have a much more important issue here. to bring back the real beautiful islam that was being snatched away from us. because i believe islam will win. aminn.

"Allah has promised those among you who believe and do righteous good deeds,

that He will certainly grant them succession in the land... "(24:55)

3 wonders of the world

we may be amazed at the 7 wonders of the medieval/ancient/modern world. the hanging garden of babylon is just one of them. but do we realize the real wonders of the world that we cant possibly live without them? sky. land. sea.

the land

without it we wont be here right now. thanks to Him who has created the land for us to step on and live in. as He loves His servants so much, He created the mountains to stabilize the land so that our daily lives will be smoother and easier.

أَلَمْ نَجْعَلِ الاٌّرْضَ مِهَـداً - وَالْجِبَالَ أَوْتَاداً

Have We not made the earth as a bed. And the mountains as pegs.

the sky

clouds, rain, lightning, stars and many others. there were just too many miracles in the sky that we often overlook. and who can deny their countless benefits to humans?

See you not that Allah drives the clouds gently, then joins them together, then makes them into a heap of layers, and you see the rain come forth from between them; and He sends down from the sky, from mountains in it of ice, and strikes therewith whom He wills, and averts it from whom He wills. The vivid flash of its (clouds) lightning nearly blinds the sight. (24:43)

the sea

this is another amazing layer. it's a water reservoir. it's even a fish reservoir :) a drop of water may seem useless but a sea of water has definitely benefited lots of boats and ships

He it is Who enables you to travel through land and sea, till when you are in the ships, and they sail with them with a favorable wind, and they are glad therein... (10:22)

their purposes

have we not see how beautiful those creations are? does He make these for nothing? of course not.

He it is Who created for you all that is on earth.... (2:29)

He made them all for us! how generous He is. that's why we have to use all these resources wisely according to His rules.

And those who disbelieve are allies of one another, (and) if you (Muslims) do not do so (protect one another), there will be Fitnah on the earth, and great corruption (8:43)

herewith, i just wanna share you an amazing song about His creations. enjoy ;)

open your eyes by maher zain

i really love the last part:

Allah..
You created everything
We belong to You
Ya Robb we raise our hands
Forever we thank You..
الحمد الله
Alhamdulillah..

in comfort zone?

on our journey to Pulau Manukan, the boat driver stop for a while at Pulau Gaya to buy some fuel. that was where i took these photos.


we might be in our comfort zone and never realize of those in need around us. too comfortable with our possession to even care of those who need it more than we do.

يَوْمَ يُحْمَى عَلَيْهَا فِى نَارِ جَهَنَّمَ فَتُكْوَى بِهَا جِبَاهُهُمْ وَجُنوبُهُمْ وَظُهُورُهُمْ هَـذَا مَا كَنَزْتُمْ لأَنفُسِكُمْ فَذُوقُواْ مَا كُنتُمْ تَكْنِزُونَ
On the Day when that will be heated in the fire of Hell and with it will be branded their foreheads, their flanks, and their backs, (and it will be said unto them:) "This is the treasure which you hoarded for yourselves. Now taste of what you used to hoard.'' (9:35)

many were too busy choosing colourful jewelleries at the night market until they could careless of an orphan who was trying his best to collect for donations. immersed in the shining swarovski crystals. blinded by the glowing pearls till they forgot that He is always watching us. watching our greediness. watching how do we endlessly satisfy our nafs, our desires.

أَرَءَيْتَ الَّذِى يُكَذِّبُ بِالدِّينِ - فَذَلِكَ الَّذِى يَدُعُّ الْيَتِيمَ وَلاَ يَحُضُّ عَلَى طَعَامِ الْمِسْكِينِ
فَوَيْلٌ لِّلْمُصَلِّينَ الَّذِينَ هُمْ عَن صَلَـتِهِمْ سَاهُونَ الَّذِينَ هُمْ يُرَآءُونَ وَيَمْنَعُونَ الْمَاعُونَ

Have you seen him who denies Ad-Din. That is he who repulses the orphan. And urges not the feeding of Al-Miskin. So, woe unto those performers of Salah, Those who with their Salah are Sahun. Those who do good deeds only to be seen, And withhold Al-Ma`un. (107:1-7)

Verily, the parable of the life of the world is as the water which We send down from the sky; so by it arises the intermingled produce of the earth of which men and cattle eat: until when the earth is clad in its adornments and is beautified, and its people think that they have all the powers of disposal over it, Our command reaches it by night or by day and We make it like a clean-mown harvest, as if it had not flourished yesterday! Thus do We explain the Ayat in detail for the people who reflect. (10:24)

let sell some of our possessions here to buy a beautiful home in jannah like Abu Dzar. insyaAllah.

Sultan Muhammad Al-Fateh

i purchased this book few days after my arrival in malaysia and just started reading it few days ago. since then i cant put it down until i finished. Sultan Muhammad Al-Fateh aka Mehmet the Conqueror. a young sultan with extraordinary achievement. he had conquered Constantinople (Istanbul) at the age of 21. but what i had contributed to Islam up till now?

"He who conquers Constantinople will be the best of princes and his army will be the best of armies." (Ahmad Hanbal Al-Musnad 4/335)

when i read his life stories, he is certainly an excellent leader. he knew he was born to be the conqueror of Constantinople. his father carefully brought him up with holistic education, ranging from islamic education to war strategies. never miss solat fardhu, solat rawatib and solat tahajud since he reached puberty. replace his father , Sultan Murad, at the age of 19.


determined to conquer Constantinople, he ensured that his army and citizens were all virtuous and well. he himself checking up his citizens by pretending to be a poor guy. a leader who never decides alone but consult others especially Muslim scholars first. a leader who were willing to build a wall together with his armies and citizens. a leader who always asked for His guidance.


during the battle, he carefully planned his strategies. he changed a land into a sea. he built moving towers. he dug tunnel to release a prisoner. after a tough battle for 53 days, he conquered Constantinople. this also marked the end of Byzantine empire.


constantinople was renamed to Istanbul which means 'islam entirely'. a city which could not be conquered by Saidina Ali, Muawiyah, Sultan Sulaiman, Harun al-Rasyid, Sultan Beyazid and Sultan Murad. may the birth date is not our only similarity. aminn.

Daurah opening - a conclusion

as we should take lessons from everything, i came up with these after thinking for a while.

1. you are never alone

i might think i'm all alone on this journey but am actually not. i'd realized that there are lots of other people on this journey together with me. there were quite a great number of students from auckland and other places and they are all so nice. they're all so angelic and i never know there is still such wonderful people now. they really understand and practise the meaning of altruism.

"none of you truly believes (in Allah and His religion) until he loves for his brother for

what he loves for himself" (bukhari & muslim)

all praises to Him for giving me such an opportunity to meet them. i was amazed when Dr Aman mentioned that our network are all over the world, spanning from UK to Japan. was more amazed when he told us about various efforts and programmes they held in Malaysia. was more and more amazed when he mentioned that they work in a team and always protect each other. what bond is stronger on this earth than ukhuwah between muslims?

"the believers are but a brotherhood..." (49:10)

"And He has united their (believers') hearts. If you had spent all that is in the earth, you could not have united their hearts, but Allah h

as united them. Certainly He is All-Mighty, All-Wise." (8:63)

so never despair of rejection as there are many others who have the same mission and feel the way you feel. hope to see them all in jannah. insyaAllah.

2. believe in His help

it's beyond doubt that the subject of zionism is quite popular among muslims.

we know that they are the enemy of islam. we heard of their hidden conspiracy (especially for those who'd watched the arrivals). we SAW their CRUEL invasion in palestine.

And We decreed for the Children of Israel in the Scripture: "Indeed you would do mischief in the land twic

e and you will become tyrants and extremely arrogant! (17:4)

looking at those developments achieved by the West, we might feel inferior with the current state of muslims. we might feel the mission to bring back the glory days of islam is a far-fetched idea. but, after attending the programme and looking at their wonderful and

very organized efforts, i wont never feel that way again. while the zionist have their own agenda, never think that muslims will just sit there ignorantly. we also have our own mission to counter them. a mission that demands a great patience and faith. a mission that will still continue even after our deaths. plus, Allah is always by our side. what is greater than that?

"Allah has promised those among you who believe and do righteous good deeds, t

hat He will certainly grant them succession in the land... "(24:55)

O you who believe! If you support (in the cause of)

Allah, He will support you, and make your foothold firm.) (8. But as for those who disbelieve, misery awaits them, and (Allah) will make their deeds vain (47:7-8)

So, We gave power to those who believed against their enemies, and they beca

me the victorious (uppermost). (61:14)

so, never despair and lose hope. as long as we have the determination and His help, there is always hope in everything. insyaAllah.

Daurah opening - Day 2

it was mainly about the tafsir of surah in juzz amma. the presenter was akhi faridul. those are just a quick summary.

1. surah An-Nas

قُلْ أَعُوذُ بِرَبّ النَّاسِ- مَلِكِ النَّاسِ- إِلَـهِ النَّاسِ- مِن شَرّ الْوَسْوَاسِ الْخَنَّاسِ
- الَّذِى يُوَسْوِسُ فِى صُدُورِ النَّاسِ- مِنَ الْجِنَّةِ وَالنَّاسِ

Say: 'I seek refuge with the Lord of An-Nas,'. 'The King of An-Nas,'. 'The God of An-Nas,'. 'From the evil of the whisperer who withdraws.'. 'Who whispers in the breasts of An-Nas.'. 'Of Jinn and An-Nas.' (114: 1-6)

the first three verses involve aqidah and tauhid. while in the other three, Allah exposes strategies of our enemy. it's easier for us to counter them once we are aware how their conspiracy works

And when they meet those who believe, they say: "We believe,'' but when they are alone with their Shayatin (devils), they say: "Truly, we are with you; verily, we were but mocking.''.Allah mocks at them and leaves them increasing in their deviation to wander blindly. (2: 14-15)


2. surah Al-Kauthar

إِنَّآ أَعْطَيْنَـكَ الْكَوْثَرَ - فَصَلِّ لِرَبِّكَ وَانْحَرْ - إِنَّ شَانِئَكَ هُوَ الاٌّبْتَرُ
Verily, We have granted you Al-Kawthar. Therefore turn in prayer to your Lord and sacrifice. For he who hates you, he will be cut off. (108:1-3)

He has given us countless nikmat. islam and iman are indeed the greatest ones. these will lead us to an everlasting happiness in jannah. insyaAllah. together with nikmat, comes along gratitude. how do we show it? by perfoming ibadah and make sacrifice for Him in our daily lives.

3. surah Quraisy

﴿لإِيلَـفِ قُرَيْشٍ - إِيلَـفِهِمْ رِحْلَةَ الشِّتَآءِ وَالصَّيْفِ - فَلْيَعْبُدُواْ رَبَّ هَـذَا الْبَيْتِ - الَّذِى أَطْعَمَهُم مِّن جُوعٍ وَءَامَنَهُم مِّنْ خوْفٍ ﴾

For the Ilaf of the Quraysh. Their Ilaf caravans, in winter and in summer. So, let them worship the Lord of this House. Who has fed them against hunger, and has made them safe from fear. (106: 1-4)

this one taught me about jahiliyah. it's never being measured by our level of intelectuality but our aqidah. it simply means we do not know Allah the way we should know Him. it comes about when one thinks of evil thoughts about Allah.

"And that He may punish the hypocrites men and women, and also the idolators men and women, who think evil thoughts about Allah, for them is a disgraceful torment. And the anger of Allah is upon them, and He has cursed them and prepared Hell for them and worst indeed is that destination." (48:6)

when one thinks he is good enough

"Nay! Verily, man does transgress. Because he considers himself self-sufficient." (96:6-7)


when one simply follows the others


"And if you obey most of those on the earth, they will mislead you far away from Allah's path. They follow nothing but conjecture, and they do nothing but lie." (6:116)

it might not seem obvious but we do have jahiliah in 20th century. it happens when one places materials as their 1st priority, as their Ilah. naudzubillah.

Daurah opening - Day 1

it was held at World Assembly Muslim Youth Centre (WAMY) at seri kembangan. as i was late for few hours, i only had the chance to attend the 2nd slot given by Dr Tengku Shahrom. he'd made me realized how fortunate i am to be chosen by Him. out of hundreds of thousands of youths out there, i am chosen to understand instead of just following islam. i am a muslim by choice by the age of 19.

"..This day, I have perfected your religion for you, completed My favor upon you, and have chosen for you Islam as your religion..." (5:3)

we were also exposed to the reality in the society now, especially in Malaysia. crimes and other social immoralities are increasing at a speeding rate.


although various methods and laws have been implemented, the situation is not improving at all. so what is actually the core problem behind this? it's their soul. they do not know what their lives are really for. they feel empty inside.

أَلَمْ يَأْتِهِمْ نَبَأُ الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِهِمْ قَوْمِ نُوحٍ وَعَادٍ وَثَمُودَ وَقَوْمِ إِبْرَهِيمَ وِأَصْحَـبِ مَدْيَنَ وَالْمُؤْتَفِكَـتِ أَتَتْهُمْ رُسُلُهُمْ بِالْبَيِّنَـتِ فَمَا كَانَ اللَّهُ لِيَظْلِمَهُمْ وَلَـكِن كَانُواْ أَنفُسَهُمْ يَظْلِمُونَ

"Has not the story reached them of those before them -- The people of Nuh,`Ad, Thamud, the people of Ibrahim, the dwellers of Madyan and the overturned cities; to them came their Messengers with clear proofs. So it was not Allah Who wronged them, but they used to wrong themselves" (9:70)

having said that, we cant simply turn away from them. it is the responsibility on the shoulder of every person who claim himself a muslim.

وَالْمُؤْمِنُونَ وَالْمُؤْمِنَـتِ بَعْضُهُمْ أَوْلِيَآءُ بَعْضٍ يَأْمُرُونَ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ وَيَنْهَوْنَ عَنِ الْمُنْكَرِ وَيُقِيمُونَ الصَّلَوةَ وَيُؤْتُونَ الزَّكَوةَ وَيُطِيعُونَ اللَّهَ وَرَسُولَهُ أُوْلَـئِكَ سَيَرْحَمُهُمُ اللَّهُ إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَزِيزٌ حَكِيمٌ

"the believers, men and women, are supporters of one another; they enjoin good, and forbid evil; they perform the Salah, and give the Zakah, and obey Allah and His Messenger. Allah will have His mercy on them. Surely, Allah is All-Mighty, All-Wise" (9:71)

i belong to Allah

salam. this morning i was so afraid to check my exam result. i refused to know it until this evening. alhamdulillah i can pursue to year 2 next year. it was beyond words. was speechless for a moment. it's something i never expect of. how generous He is. i know i'm not a good servant of His. i did actually lose my hope towards Him for a while during the exam week. i did feel that medicine is just unbearable and is not for me sometimes. i did actually give up. i did think that the memory space in our brain is just not enough for all those anatomy stuff. i often disobey Him. but then, He is so nice to me. He still gives me His blessings. He stil gives me things that i think are just unreachable. He created me. He knows me better than i know myself. He knows i can get through this. then i should believe in myself. all praises are just for You. my Lord, i seek for Your forgiveness. my Lord, i am indeed belonged to you. guide me in every steps that i take. amin.

وَلَقَدْ خَلَقْنَا الإِنسَـنَ وَنَعْلَمُ مَا تُوَسْوِسُ بِهِ نَفْسُهُ وَنَحْنُ أَقْرَبُ إِلَيْهِ مِنْ حَبْلِ الْوَرِيدِ

And indeed We have created man, and We know what his self whispers to him. And We are nearer to him than his jugular vein (50:16)

let's improve =)

salam. have you been wondering why is it so hard to love others sincerely? to love others because of Him. why is it so hard sometimes? we can treat someone nicely, but deep inside our heart, is it really like that? of course i really want to love my friends sincerely but it's just not that easy. i wish i could be like one of SA members who love others so purely. and i did address this to another SA member (fyi, SA refers to sabiqunall awwalun, members of my house here) she said Allah the All-Knowing made humans so beautiful. He made us with different qualities, different races, different features. but why? to complement each other of course.

" o mankind! We have created you from a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes that you may know one another. Verily, the most honourable of you with Allah is that (believer) who has At-Taqwa (49:13)

a human is not made to be perfect in every single aspect. some people is good in this while others is good in another aspect. but do we just let it be that way? nope. we observe others. we learn from others. then we improve ourselves. we take bits and pieces from each other and insyaAllah, we'll together be better persons. but always remember not to take wrong parts :)

and if we are trying so hard to improve, dont despair and never lose hope as He is always looking at our efforts.

وَقُلِ اعْمَلُواْ فَسَيَرَى اللَّهُ عَمَلَكُمْ وَرَسُولُهُ وَالْمُؤْمِنُونَ وَسَتُرَدُّونَ إِلَى عَـلِمِ الْغَيْبِ

وَالشَّهَـدَةِ فَيُنَبِّئُكُمْ بِمَا كُنتُمْ تَعْمَلُونَ

and say "Do deeds! Allah will see your deeds, and (so will) His messengers and the believers.
and you wil be brought back to the All-Knower of the unseen and the seen. then He will inform you of what you used to do. (9:105)

E.N.V.Y

salam. was visting pages of my my friends in facebook and a rush of envy suddenly appeared. what a wonderful vacation they have, wish i have that etc2. sounds typical, doesnt it? just stop. never let syaitan influences our thoughts. then how a muslim should view this? let Quran tells us how.

وَلاَ تَتَمَنَّوْاْ مَا فَضَّلَ اللَّهُ بِهِ بَعْضَكُمْ عَلَى بَعْضٍ...

"and wish not for the things in which Allah has made some of you to excel others.." (4:32)

different people just provided with different things. some with this. some with that. but that doesnt matter. the matter is really whether we are grateful to Him or not. and how do use things that He gives for His cause? and will all those things make our scale heavier when we meet Him?

"and the weighing on that Day will be the true (weighing). so, as for those whose scale (of good deeds) will be heavy, they will be the successful (by entering Paradise). and as for those whose scale will be light, they are those who will lose themselves for their wrongful behaviours with Our Ayat. and surely, We gave you authority on the earth and appointed for you therein livelihoods. Little thanks you give" (7: 8-10)

beautiful trip to brisbane I

salam. i'd arrived at brisbane yesterday and would spend about 4 days here before my flight to malaysia on 27th. yup, it's exactly on the 1st aidiladha. that would definitely be my choice when the ticket is 400aud cheaper. today we were on a road trip to gold coast. a factory outlet at harbourtown is our 1st destination. thinking of how easy it is to buy things for ourselves but not for those who are really in need makes me kind of dissapointed. our nafs to spend money on ourselves is much greater than to help our brothers and sisters who are still uncertain of their next meal. isnt His rewards are so great to those who do sedekah?

مَّثَلُ الَّذِينَ يُنفِقُونَ أَمْوَلَهُمْ فِي سَبِيلِ اللَّهِ كَمَثَلِ حَبَّةٍ أَنبَتَتْ سَبْعَ سَنَابِلَ فِي كُلِّ سُنبُلَةٍ مِّاْئَةُ حَبَّةٍ وَاللَّهُ يُضَـعِفُ لِمَن يَشَآءُ وَاللَّهُ وَسِعٌ عَلِيمٌ

The parable of those who spend their wealth in the way of Allah, is that of a grain (of corn); it grows seven ears, and each ear has a hundred grains. Allah gives manifold increase to whom He wills. And Allah is All-Sufficient for His creatures' needs, All-Knower (2:261)

our next stop is the pelican beach. a spectacular view indeed. subhanallah. to know The Creator we should look at His creations. we were having our late lunch while exploring the topic of ukhuwah islamiyyah.

إِنَّمَا الْمُؤْمِنُونَ إِخْوَةٌ فَأَصْلِحُواْ بَيْنَ أَخَوَيْكُمْ وَاتَّقُواْ اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُرْحَمُونَ

The believers are but a brotherhood. So make reconciliation between your brothers, and have Taqwa of Allah that you may receive mercy (49:10)

Verily, Allah loves those who fight in His cause in rows as if they were a solid structure (61:4)

And hold fast, all of you together, to the Rope of Allah, and be not divided among yourselves, and remember Allah's favor on you, for you were enemies of one another but He joined your hearts together, so that, by His grace, you became brethren, and you were on the brink of a pit of Fire, and He saved you from it. Thus Allah makes His Ayat clear to you, that you may be guided. (3:103)

ukhuwah is one of muslims' strengths. a lonely prey is definitely easier to be caught by a predator compared to when it's in a group. we wont be a true muslim if we only focus on our own ibadah while ignoring of those around us. He also emphasized the significance of spreading the truth to others:

Verily, man is in loss.Except those who believe and do righteous deeds, and recommend one another to the truth, and recommend one another to patience. (103: 2-3)

Let there arise out of you a group of people inviting to all that is good (Islam), enjoining Al-Ma`ruf (all that Islam orders) and forbidding Al-Munkar (all that Islam has forbidden). And it is they who are the successful (3:104)

ukhuwah can be either our greatest weapon or weakest point. never let our desire or syaitan weaken the bonds between muslims as they'll certainly try to influence us through every possible way. among various ways to spice up our ukhuwah is to advice one another. one might say he cant advice others regarding something until he is prepared to practice it. then how long should he wait for himself to prepare? what if death meets him first? the past is something that we can never change and the future is still uncertain. then make full use of the present. then one might argue what's the use of practicing something when he's being forced and not sincere? sincerity is very difficult to achieve. it is like looking for a black ant on a black stone in the middle of the night. but the strategy is to put some sweetened condensed milk (as suggested by others;p ) to attract the ant. the milk symbolizes our effort and insyaAllah, may He makes it easier for us to achieve sincerity once we have taken the 1st step. we should never expect to feel it when we have not tried anything.

O you who believe! Why do you say that which you do not do. Most hateful it is with Allah that you say that which you do not do. (61: 2-3)

then, let's walk the talk and talk the walk. insyaAllah, He is always looking at our efforts =)

everything is in His hand

salam. i'd just finished my final exam. final exam for mbbs year 1. i almost cant believe it. alhamdulillah i'm still alive up to this point. i wouldnt say this exam was a good one. i'd tried my best and put all my efforts in the 2-weeks study leave. and during the 1st paper, i just totally tawakal to Him and i guess everything would be fine. not until few hours after the paper. by then, every questions kept coming back to me. especially those that i didnt answer correctly. i was disappointed and would say i lost my hope for a while. i was asking myself, 'i had totally tawakal to Him but then why my exam was really bad. perhaps your effort is really directly proportional to your result. ' astaghfirullah.

for my 2nd paper, i gave my best efforts. i gave it all out. spending every second with books and disrupted sleeping pattern. and somehow, the sense of tawakal and dependency to Him wasnt really there. i felt confidence when i enter the exam hall not because of Him but my efforts. astaghfirullah. the 2nd paper was quite okay though. upon finishing the exam, i just didnt feel that it's right. why did i work so hard? is it really because of islam or result? no matter how rich we are, how excellent our result is, we're all have one thing in common. we're created and born to be His servants. if we spend our whole life to achieve other things except our purpose of being here on this earth that had been determined by Our creator, then what is the significance? it's indeed a great failure.

from my eyes, the concept of tawakal is really not about fully submit yourself to Him and expect the outcome would be the one that you like the most. it's about fully submission to Him and put all your efforts and believes that what He had set is the best for us though we might not like it. and we shoud even tawakal before we make any efforts. just like the birds which go out in the morning with nothing but returning back to the nest with foods for their children. so everything is in His hand.insyaAllah =)

وَرِضْوَنٌ مِّنَ اللَّهِ أَكْبَرُ ذَلِكَ هُوَ الْفَوْزُ الْعَظِيمُ

...But the greatest bliss is the good pleasure of Allah. That is the supreme success. (9:72)

sang murabbi

i'd just finished watching sang murabbi, an indonesian movie based on the life of Allahyarham Rahmat Abdullah. a beautiful story indeed. i was touched by his endless efforts in conveying His messages to other muslims. despite of objections from certain people, he was always steadfast and patient as he was only afraid of Him. he dedicated his life for islam.

"It is not (possible) for any human being to whom Allah has given the Book and Al-Hukm and prophethood to say to the people: "Be my worshippers rather than Allah's.'' On the contrary (he would say): "Be you Rabbaniyyun, because you are teaching the Book, and you are studying it " (3:79)

few of scripts that i love from the movie:

Even rocks and water on a river can work peacefully together, then be ashamed of yourself if you cant unite with other muslims.

Sekelompok manusia terkampar, siapa yg mengaku bertanggungjawab bila semua pihak menghindar. Biarlah saya yg menanggungnya, semua atau sebahagiannya

Kemiskinan yg paling dahsyat ialah kemiskinan azam n tekad

janganlah jadi seperti asap, besar di udara tetapi tidak berharga. jadilah seperti bintang, hanya kecil tetapi bersinar.