alhamdulillah i’d just finished my final exam for this year few days ago. i’d given my best efforts and now everything is in His hand. never despair for it never brings the past back. these few days, i felt a part of me is missing. having to learn about neuro, endo and psychology for the past 13 weeks really make me feel unease after the exam. though i said to myself that this holiday is a great chance for me to be closer to Him, but being a burdened-free is definitely a challenge. you feel like you dont have the strong urge to prostrate and be humble in front of Him.
subhanaAllah. for He definitely the All-Knowing, He knew that concern in my heart. just hours after the thought came, He communicated with me. a news came to my knowledge. something that i thought has been resolved but apparently it hasnt. i used to cry and be sad when i receive such news before. i did actually this time. but then i smile. i was happy. for the Lord of the heavens and the earth is actually talking to me in His special way. subhanAllah. an honour that is beyond descriptio. He heard me. He knew everything in my heart. He wanted me to always hold onto Him in the time of difficulties and ease. All praises belong to Him.
with the rain was pouring heavily outside, i could feel His blessings are wrapping around me. another thing i’d realized is that He actually answered a prayer i made few years back through this test. subhanaAllah. indeed, He never leaves His servants. never. He’s always there. it’s just us that often overlook his uncountable blessings. now i hope He wont take this iman from my heart till my last breath. amin.
“And when My servants ask you (O Muhammad concerning Me, then answer them), I am indeed near (to them by My knowledge). I respond to the invocations of the supplicant when he calls on Me (without any mediator or intercessor). So let them obey Me and believe in Me, so that they may be led aright”(2:186)