Saturday, November 13, 2010

He always hear you


alhamdulillah i’d just finished my final exam for this year few days ago. i’d given my best efforts and now everything is in His hand. never despair for it never brings the past back. these few days, i felt a part of me is missing. having to learn about neuro, endo and psychology for the past 13 weeks really make me feel unease after the exam. though i said to myself that this holiday is a great chance for me to be closer to Him, but being a burdened-free is definitely a challenge. you feel like you dont have the strong urge to prostrate and be humble in front of Him.

subhanaAllah. for He definitely the All-Knowing, He knew that concern in my heart. just hours after the thought came, He communicated with me. a news came to my knowledge. something that i thought has been resolved but apparently it hasnt. i used to cry and be sad when i receive such news before. i did actually this time. but then i smile. i was happy. for the Lord of the heavens and the earth is actually talking to me in His special way. subhanAllah. an honour that is beyond descriptio. He heard me. He knew everything in my heart. He wanted me to always hold onto Him in the time of difficulties and ease. All praises belong to Him.

with the rain was pouring heavily outside, i could feel His blessings are wrapping around me. another thing i’d realized is that He actually answered a prayer i made few years back through this test. subhanaAllah. indeed, He never leaves His servants. never. He’s always there. it’s just us that often overlook his uncountable blessings. now i hope He wont take this iman from my heart till my last breath. amin.

“And when My servants ask you (O Muhammad concerning Me, then answer them), I am indeed near (to them by My knowledge). I respond to the invocations of the supplicant when he calls on Me (without any mediator or intercessor). So let them obey Me and believe in Me, so that they may be led aright”(2:186)

Thursday, November 4, 2010

meski ku rapuh


Allah by saesm of DeviantArt

detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan.

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidup

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dadaku harap hanya
diriMu yang bertakhta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu


-rapuh by opick-

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

my Ultimate source of strength



can a true muslim be sad?

of course,that’s a human’s nature.


for how long you want to cry?

for how long you want to be trapped in the endless darkness?

the darkness that slowly eat away your hopes & dreams.

my heart has cried enough

my eyes have dried.

it’s the time to smile.

smile, even it feels like moving a mountain.

smile, for it’ll make others happy.

for i turn to Him whenever i’m sad,

and He always gladly gives me the strength,

the strength to keep going.

for He is my Ultimate source of strength.   

Sunday, September 5, 2010

kerna aku percaya janjiNya

Sadness by Hassunomo of DeviantArt

siang tidak selamanya terang

malam tidak selamanya gelap

manusia tidak selamanya hidup

tiada yang kekal melainkanNya

tiada yang kekal.

airmata juga tidak selamanya basah

ia pasti diganti senyuman

suatu hari nanti.

kerna aku yakin pada janjiNya.

maka Kau tabahkanlah sekeping hati ini

agar aku tidak tersungkur di tengah perjalanan.


“Verily, along with every hardship is relief, Verily, along with every hardship is relief. So when you have finished, devote yourself to Allah's worship. And to your Lord turn intentions and hopes.”

(94: 5-8)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

something behind it


Roses_by_LisaLins roses by lisa lins of Deviantart



what do they have in common? i’d found the answer throughout my journey in ramadhan. being a daei never stop myself from receiving obstacles form my Lord. in fact, it’s indeed a tougher one. tougher to be fought against. and it’s more and more tougher in Ramadhan, the blessed month. when everyone else is busy increasing their amal and ibadah, i have to strive hard against this difficult hurdle. i have to fight against myself. but…why?

“Whatsoever is in the heavens and whatsoever is on the earth glorifies Allah. And He is the Almighty, the All-Wise.O you who believe! Why do you say that which you do not do.Most hateful it is with Allah that you say that which you do not do.” (61:1-3)

Allah is teaching me to APPLY in my life things i’d been preaching of. so that i wont be those whom He hates. subhanAllah. He purposely puts myself in difficult situation now just to save me from His hatefulness. Alhamdulillah. all praises are just for Him.

may You give me the strength to fight against this feeling. for all strength are from You, the Almighty Allah. aminn.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

cahayaNya yang pasti



Bila malam, pasti ada siang.

Bila gelap, pasti ada terang.

Bila turun, pasti ada naiknya.

Bila sedih, pasti ada bahagia.

Bila tawa, pasti ada airmata.

Begitulah hidup seorang insan,

hambaNya yang lemah lagi kerdil.

Hidup bagai roda yang berputar,

beruntunglah mereka yang melompat

lebih tinggi apabila kecundang.

Mereka yang jatuh,

tetapi jatuh ke hadapan.

Hanya kerna sumber kekuatan hakiki

sentiasa di jiwa mereka.


Bila cahaya dhuhaNya menyinari pagi,

terhapuslah malam yang kelam.

Seperti itu aku mengharapkan kesedihan ini

ditelan kebahagiaan yang menanti di hujung perjalanan.


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

the moulding age



image by ~Gazza NZ of Deviant Art

my journey back to malaysia hold many interesting stories. this is one of them. i sat beside a bussinessman on my 8-hours flight to malaysia. he is a full-time amway distributor in australia. as expected, he began to promote amway to me. while he seemed to endlessly tell me how great amway is, i have something else in my mind.

he chose to dedicate his life to amway and earn money from it. he chose to spend all of his time thinking how to widen his amway networks. he chose to be doing that for the rest of his life, until his golden age. that’s his decision. that’s his direction of life.

once you reach 20s, you start to think about your life, the meaning of it and how you will mould it. this age range is the time for most people to shape their perspectives towards life, to start to orientate their life into their chosen direction and finally to dedicate their whole life for it.

unlike Nuh as who lived for 950 years, our average lifespan is only around 60-100 years old. not to mention the fact that we could die anytime that He wants. then, will you use the very short time given by Him for something that is not beneficial for your akhirat, the forever Hereafter?  

“And the life of this world is nothing but play and amusement. But far better is the abode of the Hereafter for those have Taqwa. Will you not then understand)” (Al-an’am 6:32)

hence, what will you dedicate your life for?

endlessly earning money?

“And what will his wealth avail him when he

goes down (in destruction)” (Al-Layl 92:11)

or the sought-after ‘Dr’ title ?

it’s your life, it’s your age, it’s your story.

it’s your akhirat, it’s your ending.

the Heaven full of indescribable pleasures.

“(They will be) on thrones, Mawdunah. Reclining thereon, face to face. Immortal boys will go around them (serving). With cups, and jugs, and a glass of flowing wine,Wherefrom neither Yusadda`un nor Yunzifun. And with fruit that they may choose. And with the flesh of fowls that they desire.And (there will be) Hur with wide lovely eyes.Like preserved pearls.A reward for what they used to do. No Laghw (evil vain talk) will they hear therein, nor any sinful speech. But only the saying of: "Salaman! Salaman!'' (Al-Waqi’ah 56:15 – 26)

or the dark Hell.

But no! Verily, he will be thrown into Al-Hutamah.And what will make you know what Al-Hutamah is, The fire of Allah, Al-Muqadah, Which leaps up over the hearts. Verily, it shall Mu'sadah upon them, In pillars stretched forth. (Al-Humazah 104: 4-9)


may Allah the Most Merciful guide our hearts always. aminn.