R.E.G.R.E.T

this week's content for Health in Practice is about migrant; which include the stands of many religions on certain medical situations (abortion, euthanasia etc). and of couse, i was excited to have its discussion session on wednesday. but, i accidentally missed the class and i was so so so frustrated on that day. only He knows how i felt. i felt like i have the biggest chance ever to let others know about islam and i just wasted it like that. due to my own weakness. (many thanks to farah and hajar who courageously explained to them about islam's stands). i would say i had the highest level of regret on that night. that was one.

إِنَّ مَا تُوعَدُونَ لأَتٍ وَمَآ أَنتُم بِمُعْجِزِينَ

Surely, that which you are promised,
will verily come to pass, and you cannot escape (6:134)

secondly, i was browsing through my friends' blogs (who are at auckland and sydney). i could say i was actually jealous towards them. it's just because that they have a wonderful and large muslim community there. with the kind-hearted sisters. with the islamic programmes (those with knowledgable and proffessional people telling them about islam). plus, looking at how fast they'd developed (in terms of iman) really makes me say to myself "i wish i was there"

hold on a second, does that mean you are not happy with what Allah has set up for you? you think what He did is bad for you? astaghfirullah. He always knows what's the best for you though you dont like it. so i analysed those 2 scenarios.

Fighting is ordained for you (Muslims) though you dislike it, and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you.
Allah knows but you do not know (2:216)

the 1st one: by missing the great chance to spread islam to others, i am actually more determined to do it by using other way in order to pay back what i'd lost (eg updating this blog more often..hehehe). and i explored my intention. do i want to be there because i want them to know about islam's perspectives? or i want to be there just because i want to talk in front of them? so we can see an issue of intention here. the conclusion is we should ALWAYS look back at our intention of every actions and refine it (if it seems slightly astrayed). so the 1st case is done.


the 2nd one: this was not a new issue indeed. had been feeling this since the day i came here. it comes and goes. it's just tonight that it came back. this reminds me of what my friend said about this issue: just imagine all of us want to go to the same place. and we all take the same train. the difference is just that they enter the train earlier compared to us. the important part is that we're all in the train. we'll be safe as long as we're in the train. i guess this analogy explains it all. and perhaps i want to add some modification to it. hehehe. we can also go to the same destination by using a train that has a different route. as long as its last destination is the Hereafter. perhaps the different route is the one that taught you to be a stronger person =)

فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْراً

Verily, along with every hardship is relief (94:5)