my Ultimate source of strength

 

sadness.

can a true muslim be sad?

of course,that’s a human’s nature.

but….

for how long you want to cry?

for how long you want to be trapped in the endless darkness?

the darkness that slowly eat away your hopes & dreams.

my heart has cried enough

my eyes have dried.

it’s the time to smile.

smile, even it feels like moving a mountain.

smile, for it’ll make others happy.

for i turn to Him whenever i’m sad,

and He always gladly gives me the strength,

the strength to keep going.

for He is my Ultimate source of strength.   

kerna aku percaya janjiNya

Sadness by Hassunomo of DeviantArt

siang tidak selamanya terang

malam tidak selamanya gelap

manusia tidak selamanya hidup

tiada yang kekal melainkanNya

tiada yang kekal.

airmata juga tidak selamanya basah

ia pasti diganti senyuman

suatu hari nanti.

kerna aku yakin pada janjiNya.

maka Kau tabahkanlah sekeping hati ini

agar aku tidak tersungkur di tengah perjalanan.

 

“Verily, along with every hardship is relief, Verily, along with every hardship is relief. So when you have finished, devote yourself to Allah's worship. And to your Lord turn intentions and hopes.”

(94: 5-8)

something behind it

assalamualaikum

 roses by lisa lins of Deviantart

 

ramadhan.hurdles.dakwah.

what do they have in common? i’d found the answer throughout my journey in ramadhan. being a daei never stop myself from receiving obstacles form my Lord. in fact, it’s indeed a tougher one. tougher to be fought against. and it’s more and more tougher in Ramadhan, the blessed month. when everyone else is busy increasing their amal and ibadah, i have to strive hard against this difficult hurdle. i have to fight against myself. but…why?

“Whatsoever is in the heavens and whatsoever is on the earth glorifies Allah. And He is the Almighty, the All-Wise.O you who believe! Why do you say that which you do not do.Most hateful it is with Allah that you say that which you do not do.” (61:1-3)

Allah is teaching me to APPLY in my life things i’d been preaching of. so that i wont be those whom He hates. subhanAllah. He purposely puts myself in difficult situation now just to save me from His hatefulness. Alhamdulillah. all praises are just for Him.

may You give me the strength to fight against this feeling. for all strength are from You, the Almighty Allah. aminn.

cahayaNya yang pasti

 

Bila malam, pasti ada siang.

Bila gelap, pasti ada terang.

Bila turun, pasti ada naiknya.

Bila sedih, pasti ada bahagia.

Bila tawa, pasti ada airmata.

Begitulah hidup seorang insan,

hambaNya yang lemah lagi kerdil.

Hidup bagai roda yang berputar,

beruntunglah mereka yang melompat

lebih tinggi apabila kecundang.

Mereka yang jatuh,

tetapi jatuh ke hadapan.

Hanya kerna sumber kekuatan hakiki

sentiasa di jiwa mereka.

 

Bila cahaya dhuhaNya menyinari pagi,

terhapuslah malam yang kelam.

Seperti itu aku mengharapkan kesedihan ini

ditelan kebahagiaan yang menanti di hujung perjalanan.

Amin.

the moulding age

 

assalamualaikum.

 by ~Gazza NZ of Deviant Art

my journey back to malaysia hold many interesting stories. this is one of them. i sat beside a bussinessman on my 8-hours flight to malaysia. he is a full-time amway distributor in australia. as expected, he began to promote amway to me. while he seemed to endlessly tell me how great amway is, i have something else in my mind.

he chose to dedicate his life to amway and earn money from it. he chose to spend all of his time thinking how to widen his amway networks. he chose to be doing that for the rest of his life, until his golden age. that’s his decision. that’s his direction of life.

once you reach 20s, you start to think about your life, the meaning of it and how you will mould it. this age range is the time for most people to shape their perspectives towards life, to start to orientate their life into their chosen direction and finally to dedicate their whole life for it.

unlike Nuh as who lived for 950 years, our average lifespan is only around 60-100 years old. not to mention the fact that we could die anytime that He wants. then, will you use the very short time given by Him for something that is not beneficial for your akhirat, the forever Hereafter?  

“And the life of this world is nothing but play and amusement. But far better is the abode of the Hereafter for those have Taqwa. Will you not then understand)” (Al-an’am 6:32)

hence, what will you dedicate your life for?

endlessly earning money?

“And what will his wealth avail him when he

goes down (in destruction)” (Al-Layl 92:11)

or the sought-after ‘Dr’ title ?

it’s your life, it’s your age, it’s your story.

it’s your akhirat, it’s your ending.

the Heaven full of indescribable pleasures.

“(They will be) on thrones, Mawdunah. Reclining thereon, face to face. Immortal boys will go around them (serving). With cups, and jugs, and a glass of flowing wine,Wherefrom neither Yusadda`un nor Yunzifun. And with fruit that they may choose. And with the flesh of fowls that they desire.And (there will be) Hur with wide lovely eyes.Like preserved pearls.A reward for what they used to do. No Laghw (evil vain talk) will they hear therein, nor any sinful speech. But only the saying of: "Salaman! Salaman!'' (Al-Waqi’ah 56:15 – 26)

or the dark Hell.

But no! Verily, he will be thrown into Al-Hutamah.And what will make you know what Al-Hutamah is, The fire of Allah, Al-Muqadah, Which leaps up over the hearts. Verily, it shall Mu'sadah upon them, In pillars stretched forth. (Al-Humazah 104: 4-9)

 

may Allah the Most Merciful guide our hearts always. aminn.

a woman’s choice

 

bismillah. assalamualaikum.

by Osokin on DeviantArt

nobody denies that a woman is made beautiful by Allah SWT. however, what is the value of a woman? so valuable that nothing could be compared to a woman? or of so little worth that even small amount of tip for serving red wine could cherish a woman? well, that was what i’d seen on my flight back to malaysia.  which one best describes you? it’s totally up to you. the choice is yours.

 

as mentioned in the Quran, Asiyah is in the first category. being the wife of an undeniably wealthy pharaoh , she definitely lived in luxury. however, she was never attracted to those fake worldly indulgence. Allah SWT gave her the strength to resist the greatest challenge that a woman could face, wealth.

وَضَرَبَ اللَّهُ مَثَلاً لّلَّذِينَ ءامَنُواْ امْرَأَةَ فِرْعَوْنَ إِذْ قَالَتْ رَبّ ابْنِ لِى عِندَكَ بَيْتاً فِى

الْجَنَّةِ وَنَجّنِى مِن فِرْعَوْنَ وَعَمَلِهِ وَنَجّنِى مِنَ الْقَوْمِ الظَّـلِمِينَ

“And Allah has set forth an example for those who believe: the wife of Fir`awn, when she said: "My Lord! Build for me a home with You in Paradise, and save me from Fir`awn and his work, and save me from the people who are wrongdoers.” (At-Tahrim 66:11)

 

maryam as was another exceptional example. turning away from appealing temptations that the world could offer, she chose to dedicate her life and soul to the Lord Almighty.

وَمَرْيَمَ ابْنَةَ عِمْرَانَ الَّتِى أَحْصَنَتْ فَرْجَهَا فَنَفَخْنَا فِيهِ مِن رُّوحِنَا

وَصَدَّقَتْ بِكَلِمَـتِ رَبَّهَا وَكُتُبِهِ وَكَانَتْ مِنَ الْقَـنِتِينَ

“And Maryam, the daughter of `Imran who guarded her chastity (private part). And We breathed into it through Our Ruh, and she testified to the truth of her Lords Kalimat, and His Kutub, and she was of the Qanitin” (At-Tahrim 66:12)

 

ironically enough, being close to His obedient servants did not guarantee the wives of Nuh as and Lut as to obtain His Light

 

ضَرَبَ اللَّهُ مَثَلاً لِّلَّذِينَ كَفَرُواْ امْرَأَتَ نُوحٍ وَامْرَأَتَ لُوطٍ كَانَتَا تَحْتَ عَبْدَيْنِ مِنْ عِبَادِنَا صَـلِحَيْنِ فَخَانَتَاهُمَا فَلَمْ يُغْنِينَا عَنْهُمَا مِنَ اللَّهِ شَيْئاً وَقِيلَ ادْخُلاَ النَّارَ مَعَ الدَخِلِينَ

Allah sets forth an example for those who disbelieve: the wife of Nuh and the wife of Lut. They were under two of our righteous servants, but they both betrayed them. So, they availed them not against Allah and it was said: "Enter the Fire along with those who enter!'' (At-Tahrim 66: 10)

 

Allah SWT has inspired us to two paths. the path that brings us closer to Him Love and the more tempting path that leads us astray. the rest is in our hand. the choice is ours. whether you want to be an obedient woman like asiyah and maryam or merely someone that could easily be deceived by the temporary indulgence.

 

By the Soul, and the proportion and order given to it; And its enlightenment as to its wrong and its right; Truly he succeeds that purifies it, And he fails that corrupts it! (As-Shams 91: 7-10)

for Allah is the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful, He is always there to help us making a choice.

So he who gives (in charity) and fears ((Allah)), And (in all sincerity) testifies to the best, We will indeed make smooth for him the path to Bliss. But he who is a greedy miser and thinks himself self-sufficient, And gives the lie to the best, We will indeed make smooth for him the path to Misery; (Al-Layl 92: 5-10)

 

nowhere but here

 

bismillah.salam.

sometimes i do ask myself ‘why am i here?’. having to learn all about indigenous health and australian health system from scratch really made me think ‘why do i have to learn things that aren’t related to me before?’ i can choose to study medicine in malaysia while be active in many community activities that do not involve partying and partying like in australia. there is must be a reason why Allah sends me here.

 

whenever i cycle passing mt stuart on my way back to home, the story of Muhammad SAW came to my mind. Allah SWT had inspired him to be alone in the Hira’ cave while many others were worshipping idols and lost in the deceiving world. Allah SWT had protected him and his soul in the isolated cave. as a result, Muhammad SAW became a great man. a mercy to the whole world. a man with great patience and other noble manners.

  

He has beautifully arranged my life. everything is in His hand. He had placed me in this isolated small town (though many aussies think townsville isn’t that rural) so that i can build my inner strength without being impeded by negative influences. self-development i would say. to be a better servant of His. to be closer to Him. insyaAllah.